IT'S OK ~It's ok to cry as long as you remember to wipe away the tears to smile again. ~It's ok to stumble or even fall as long as you remember to brush yourself off and take another step forward again. ~It's ok to shut the door on the world as long as you remember to open the door to rejoin the world again. ~It's ok to be silent as long as you remember to speak again. ~But most of all, it's ok to shut your heart as long as you remember to love again. ~~Ravyn
Dark One
As your mighty hoof beats approach me like a reverberating boom from a cannon, I long to be riding bareback upon you, Dark One.
Let the night wind whisper to me magically and with its weaving witchery soothe the scorching stabbing sorrow inside my soul.
O Dark One, let me hold on to your masterful mane and fly with you amongst the sageful yet sympathetic stars.
Wing me ever closer to your eternal sanctuary where, my sadness could be startled in silent song.
I feel your majestic muscles murmuring their mighty strength.
From there, I find sustenance to greet life once more.
Underneath your shadowy wings, I will softly sleep.
Fly, Dark One, fly on.
~~Ravyn
Walking away
Why these endless and countless mind games?
Why this tug close and pull away?
Why your words of thoughtlessness and cruelty?
Does it make you feel bigger to make me feel smaller?
Do you despise me because money is not the currency for me to spend time with you?
Do you reject me because I have seen you at your worst?
When I break down or strike out in anger, does it validate you?
Do you punish me because I felt your tears and seen your weaknesses?
Do you hate me because you feel more for me than you can admit to yourself?
I have tried to walk away
I have burnt bridges
You won`t let go and I allow me to be kept by you
Hoping for your forgiveness and absolution that never comes
I made excuses for you and given you the benefit of doubts
Now, I can't disinguish the truth from the lies
I can't save you and am beyond exhausted to keep trying
In being loyal to you, I lost myself
The ultimate sacrifice of my life that you take for granted
Is a price too high for me to keep spending
Perhaps one day you will realize what you had in me
The bad has now far outweighed the good
I am walking away
And this time...
It is for good
Walking away
~~Ravyn
Whose i am
i drop to my knees with head bowed
i am overwhelmed by my shame and guilt
Nowhere to go and nowhere to hide
My soul singed with failure, my tears wet the ground
Covered with ashes of regret, lost hopes, and abandoned dreams
Bowed, muted, and numb, i am overwhelmed by defeat
My soul striped with scars and open wounds
i long for the oblivion of death to lose this burdening need This incessant need to escape this harsh and cruel reality
Mocked by my useless endeavors to coat my agonized soul
My soul constantly raw and abraded by believing i am unloved and unseen
Reaching out again desperately for my heart to feel anything but this endless pain
Make it go away, i plead, make it go away
Striving for peace that is seemingly beyond my reach
My hands outstretched to be touched and held
My fragile house of cards collapses
My sins exposed and my pride laid bare
My secrets revealed with the underlaying lies
Longing for darkness and yearning for refuge
i cling to the disentegrating and shredding of my faith
You do exist but i hate you i whisper
i hate you i scream and i look up with clenched fists
Defeated yet unwilling to yield my last card of hope
i finally concede i am done and sink into inevitable surrender
i feel the cool wetness of mud on my closed eyes
Mud wetted by your tears of grace
i see you as you gently lift me to my feet and tenderly whisper
The weight of your struggles have not gone unnoticed or unfelt
You have always matter from the very beginning
You have been rejected by others but never by me
You are not an option or an inconveniece
You are valued and you are worthy to me
You were brought with the price of my own blood
i open my mud coated eyes and peer into your unrelenting gaze of love
You grip my bowed shoulders with reassuring passion
I will not let you go...I got you...I will not let you go
I am yours and you are mine
Freed with the affirming and spoken words of truth
I stand defiantly in the comfort of your embrace
When who i am is transformed to whose i am
When where do i belong is revealed that i always belong to you
When who will love me is acknowledged by me that i am already loved by you
~~Ravyn
God turns you from one feeling to another and teaches by means of opposites so that you will have two wings to fly, not one~~Rumi
Note: these are iris flower buds.
Embers of Resiliency 